... i should just build myself a small panic room to lock myself into when i take vacay ...
... so i'm on vacay ... can't really do anything because i have no money ... so i figure i can get caught up on stuff at my place maybe ... HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA! ... i know ... fucking priceless laughs with that one ... first i get people rubbing in the pony fair the weekend before last ... now i've got comicon people rubbing it in from this weekend ... then monday i get a ponypal who dings me that the comicon pony is on the hasbro website for 15 bucks ... about 22 with shipping ... i get all excited ... i know, shouldn't ever get excited about anything because it all ends in failure, this is where my shitty learning curve comes into play ... i check my funds ... $2.97 to my name ...
... so then mom suggests we go to an antique mall that we don't really get to go to a lot because it's a long drive and rather pricey, but i've found some pony deals in the past and they have olive burgers that are to die for ... so i get kind of excited about it ... i know, stupid stupid me ... they've got people coming in to look at some water damaged boards to try and replace em ... they crack off the first board ... ants everywhere ... i mean EVERYWHERE ... antique mall cancelled ...
... then a buddy dings me that there's a cheap "despicable me" unicorn on ebay ... i go look and yeah it was there ... but it's not super cheap anymore ... the ruddy things are going from 40 to 60 bucks now ... a ten inch plush ... a ten inch plush that i would die for yes ... "IT'S SO FLUFFY i'M GONNA DIE!" ... and would yes, very sadly pay 40 to 60 dollars for ... if i had it ... then a guy i used to work with tells me there's one in the claw machine where i used to work ... well i suck horribly at claw machines ... like i can figure out what to do to get the one that's wanted, but can i actually do it? no ... can i guide someone else to win it? yes ... can i find a decent human being to help me win something out of it? no ...
... add into it that i just feel like shit because of work and the drive to an from it ... these 90 degree temps with super high humidity and no AC in a car with a drive of about 2 hours each way now because of road construction leads me to having to puke about 2-3 times on my way home in the afternoon ... and with my allergy to nickel running register at work makes my hands feel like they've been dipped in battery acid and lit on fire ... so i can't even play video games because my hands still hurt so much ... just want to curl up into a little ball of sobbing goo ... *sigh*
... so why the bloody hell do i take vacations? ...


